HARD LOOKS 4 SOFT GIRLS

AS: My whole life was marked by absence. Art was not about negotiating class but love. It was trying to get love and trying to hold onto it, art was my shadow, my companion... Art was a way of winning, not financial gain, but affection.

AS: I have only a spectator's version of cruising, since it's not something that I do, nor did when I was younger. I was too insecure for cruising. You know what, I make art so I don't have to cruise. It's true... Maybe I'm partly in it to get laid, but I'm also making objects that are a substitute for me. I don't have to cruise, because everyone can look at these displacements and go: "ooh, they're attractive." 

- Between Artists: Amy Sillman and Gregg Bordowitz

"Desire's formalism - its drive to be embodied and reiterated - opens it up to anxiety, fantasy, and discipline."
- Lauren Berlant, Love/Desire

ANA CECELIA ALVAREZ - Notes on Excess (excerpts)

3. Insatiability is not a state of excessive desire - it's not wanting it all. It takes no account of substance. Instead it breeds a bottomlessness. A gaping hole. Some call it a wound. 

6. Frida's excess radiated from its restrictions. Although her eccentricity made her pain palatable - an oddity - the bleakness of her physical condition - a cripple - gave her pain its colour. 

7. My body is a depository of longings, piled up, like dirty laundry. Bedridden, a restless ache of a person. 

8. The sweet burden of excess, the weight of a body on another body, the renunciation that comes with admitting defeat, giving in, manic gluttony versus cleanings, renouncing dependency, the lightness of aspiration, aspiring to lightness, giving up. 

19. "The wildest thing about me is my arrogance" - Dorothea Lasky, "Wild"

24. If you search for "women and excess" you will find articles on body hair, weight, and discharge.